its been a while...

so yea i know its been a while...sorry, so anyway, im thinking about taking this blog thing public...who knows, we'll see....

so today i officially became unemployed, the hospital was closed, i have mixed emotions about it, i will certainly miss the patients...and some of the staff, not so much the waking up at the crack of dawn....

so i know what you are saying "but dustin, what will you do with all that free time?"...

sit around...thats about it, todd's out of school so i think he and i will get to be friends again...

i want to go to vegas...

i find myself so unsure of the future right now and all things considered, i really dont care... its a general attitude of malaise that has taken over for now...and i like it...

i feel the need to explain the name if my blog now, its title is "and like icarus i collide", i find it terribly fitting for my life in that much like icarus, when i give something my best attempt i generally fail miserably. you see icarus decided that he wanted to use his pair of wax wings to fly closer to the sun than any other person had and when he did the heat from the sun melted his wings and he fell into the depths....

i am icarus, when i try to fly and achieve something new on my own merit...my wings melt...

i need new wings to try this...


d.s.w.

a good day....

today was a good day...

i got to go to church this morning and hear a good word, it was something i needed to hear...

afterwards i got to spend some quaility, all be it very frustrating, time with my dad...i needed that too...

then i got to play a little guitar which i havent sat and done in a while...

all of these things were good....

but then the day got even better...

-dustinshelby

another day...

well, here goes nothing,

its been a while since i "blogged"...i hate that terminology...it make me think of boogers....

speaking of boogers, ive been sick all day, thus producing some large ones of the aformentioned...

its been weird lately around ruston, usually about this time i am packing up my life and heading for east texas, it feels good to be home, but strangely i do miss being out there...

ive realized i use an abundance of elipsis in my posts...dont you judge me.

school is crazy, i found out im going to graduate either a quarter early or a quarter late, the latter would end with two masters degrees, there's something prideful about that, im not so sure i want it, or maybe im just being lazy. it would definately broaden my horizons for proffessions in the future....we'll see how it all goes.

as of this friday i will be the only counselor at work...twice the workload for the same pay? what the heck is that about?

i need some type of cathartic release lately. maybe i need an adventure...

eric starts his bike trip today, he's already in rhode island, if youd like to read about his trip go to www.ericbikesamerica.com , you can find his blog there...and a ridiculous picture of him wearing a tuxedo bike jersey.

thats all for now...

-dustinshelby

frustration abounds...

so, i got all of my new recording stuff in... and i dont have the right freaking cables...nevertheless (5 pt. word) i will not be deterred. soon, i will figure it out.

other than that its been a very lazy few days away from work. lot's of mario kart and such. its going to be a long summer without everyone here...

school starts in a week, i got purged again...one day i'll pay that darn tuition on time.

its become evident to me that not being gone this summer is going to require me to be very self disciplined to not become lazy and completely spiritually complacent. i need to be challenged.

thats all for now, perhaps more tomorrow...

take two...

well, im not sure i have much to say.

it's been a relaxing few days not having to work, but i know going back on thursday and doing both therapy groups will be crazy. I do miss the clients though, and i frequently catch myself thinking about how they are doing. so, it turns out im not the cold hearted bastard i thought i was i guess. more and more i catch myself worrying about work when im not at work. disconnecting from that place is hard, especially when you put so much of yourself into helping someone else.

i got an update on a new possibility today. we'll see where it goes... i could stand to play a little music these days.

in other news, my recording stuff finally came in and i am missing a cable...sucky.... but, hopefully i can get it all situated soon.

"the burden that they bear is easy to disguise, but hard to recognize, through these afflicted eyes, i am just like them oblivious to pain, content to just pretend as long as i am entertained"

First things first...

so, ive decided to blog...

this is a shocking new turn of events, but i decided it would be a good way to force myself to gather my thoughts and then put them down in some form.

but, as for right now, im exhausted so that will be all...

more to come soon.

-dustin