the undivided heart...

the past two mornings i have read and re-read psalm 86

david prays to the Lord for an undivided heart.

ive been thinking a lot lately about what it would look like if i were

a whole follower of Christ, a whole husband, a whole friend, or a whole therapist.

my thought is that the Lord deserves my attempts at whole-ness but i will only achieve

it through Him. not so that it would be about my glory but about The Glory of God.

david talks about remembering that God deserves our undivided heart because He's

raised us from the grave.

i forget that sometimes....and i dont like it...

-dustinshelbywhitlock

my nutshell...

i arise in the morning torn between a desire to
save the world and a desire to savor the world.
this makes it hard to plan the day

-e b white

lost...

"just because im losing
doesnt mean im lost...
doesnt mean i'll stop,
doesnt mean im in a cross.."


ive felt somewhat lost lately, only in a professional sense.

lately, i am not very professionally satisfied. i enjoy what i do but it seems that lately my whole job has become completing paperwork. i don't feel like im actually doing genuine therapy anymore. maybe a little more like i am completing a list of do's and dont's for a some big eye in the sky. i would rather be more client directive and help people in there area of need and trust my instincts to know where a session should go.

i guess i am just frustrated, but i feel as though i cant truly do the kind of therapy that i want to.

i wonder if the grass would be greener somewhere else...then again...what if the grass only appears greener?

id like to see some greener grass.

lets go on a trip...

ive decided to take my wife on a trip.

she has no idea where we are going.

its going to be awesome.

a new post to follow.

-dw

its almost like i got a whole new life...

that's the overwhelming feeling that I have been having lately. I look around me and realize that I am so overwhelmingly blessed by the goodness of Christ in my life.

4 months and 2 days ago I was blessed by marrying my best friend. She, next to Christ, is the absolute best thing that ever happened to me. She challenges me to be a better person, she challenges me to know and follow my savior in a deeper way, and she loves me even when I act like a jerk. She has changed my life radically in the last 4 months.

about 3 months ago I was blessed to get a new job in Ruston working for the Family Plus Counseling Center of the Methodist Children's Home. Although it was a tough start, I truly am beginning to see why God has brought me here, everyday I see the hurts and the pains of my hometown, I see those who are in the greatest need and God has blessed me with the skills and schooling to try and help them. My ministry is one that I try to take very seriously and I feel that in this new job God has expanded the effect that I have on my community.

about a week ago Kelsey and I were blessed to be able to move into our first home together. It is amazing, I never really thought about how much fun it would be to really begin to settle into a place that she and I will call "home". It is neat to be able to call something "ours" but it is again one of the blessing that God has given to us.

So, all in all it seems like in the last 5 months I've been given a whole new life...or a whole new set of circumstances. And from here the only thing I can see is the blessings of Christ in my life. I certainly don't deserve them, but I am truly grateful for them.

-dw

fences

buying a new house has gotten me into looking into new things that i have to do

like putting up a fence

fences are expensive

i'd like to build it but im not sure i have the time...or the inclination...

t-minus 13 days until move in...

supervision

i have supervision for my cases once a week on thursday mornings.

i am currently in said supervision.

it makes me desire a career change.

i wonder what i could be?