rendered helpless

the other day i realized soemthing amazing about myself, i realized that music is such a part of my life that i can barely live without it. you see, my ipod broke, or rather i broke it by carelessly dropping it to the floor completely shattering the screen. this series of events (meaning me dropping it and then the screen shattering) rendered me completely helpless.

so i began to think about how i feel when im broken. when the Father has brought me to a place where i am rendered helpless. those feelings of lostness and loneliness. ive been feeling these feelings lately, just feelings like ive gone missing. maybe its being in ruston this summer, or maybe its something else but then i began to realize that the Father always has a plan for me to be a better version of my same old self. that when im broken im at my most vulnerable and he has brought new circumstances into my life that i would not have been prepared for if i wasnt broken. He is doing something in me that i dont undrestand, but i look forward to.

i also guess i understand a little more about why He's given me these passions to play. even when i dont like the circumstances i need to do what the Father has gifted me to do.

enough of that, i smashed my old ipod up, hilarity ensued when i pulled on the battery and it shocked the hell out of me, of course giving the ipod the last laugh....damn technology...here are the pictures.