i forgot about you....

dear blog,

I forgot about you, but im back.

So it's 11:00 and i still dont feel like getting out of bed, my feet are sore and blistered. After hiking almost 20 miles they are cursing at me. Hanging out and camping with eric was a lot of fun. He and I hadnt really spent and time just relaxing in a while. And 2 days worth of driving and hiking in the silence of the national forest gave ample time to have our usual discussion of life.

Having a few days off of work has made me have very mixed feelings. I enjoy not having to drive to rayville but at the same time I want to get back to work so i can keep learning how the center works and learning more about my clients. I feel like God has really blessed me with this new job, especially after the crappy last one.

Having started the new job it has made me wonder a lot about the future and where i am going. I thought for the longest time i would never want my LPC and that i would just look for a doctoral program straight away after finishing my general and school master's. But now I am starting to wonder if i would like to stay around the center and get my LPC and see where that could take me. I think its just the comfort of Ruston that makes me not want to get away. Yes, i know, very paradoxical that the very thing I've said i wanted to get away from for a while is the very thing that keeps me here. All that being said, I've decided that over the break I must make a decision about pursuing my school masters degree. Some days I want it some days I dont. We'll see what happens.

She is gone home for a while. I miss her already. I think its the littlest things that make me care about her so much. I happened acorss a photo album of us last night that made me smile. Hopefully I will get to go visit soon and meet the fam. Which, as you know, is a huuuugggggeeeee step for me. I guess I see it as a big step in the committment area. Which is an area that Ive struggled with my whole life. My expertise in the area of freaking out and running away are childish notions I am trying to escape. Maybe it just takes the right girl?

Im sorry its been a while and I will try to remember my poor sporadic blog more frequently.

-dustinshelbywhitlock